Something Fake

Why does realizing you're wrong hurt so much? There is a boy at school that I like. He is one of my good friends and I really like him. But he likes my best friend. They tried dating but she didn't feel that spark. So I've had my friends bugging him to ask me to the winter dance coming up. And I just realized, that I've been stupid. When my friends were upset that a guy they liked didn't like them back, I always told them, "It's better then being in a false relationship." I need to take my own advice. He has been thinking about it for a few weeks and if he still doesn's know, then he must not like me that much. I don't want to have him pressured into asking me. How could I be so stupid? I guess I need to talk to him about it. But it feels bad being this wrong. However, I don't want something fake. So I'm going to go stag with my ex boyfriend since neither one of us have dates. But there are worse things in life.