Single and Hating It

Another one of my friend's just got into a relationship. Yay for her! But that leaves me single with my friends all hooking up with someone. Let's see... at least 14 of my friends are hooked up with someone else. And that leaves me. The dog of the group. I've had the worst luck with guys. And no one will ever be interested in me for a long term thing. Remember the post about dating someone you don't really like because you're lonely? Yeah, that's me. A guy's last resort. And I hate feeling so alone. I just hate being the one that's the ugly one of the group. And I just can't help it. It's really sad. But I'm happy for my friends and I want them to be happy. Even if I'm not.

Holding on

I'm not in the best mood. I was in a fight with my best friend. Some things were said but in the end, we're not gonna end our friendship over it. So I was stupid, things were snapped and I cried, I even sent an angry email to her boyfriend, but our friendship is way stronger than that. And sure, there are bumps in the road of a friendship but giving up is not the answer. With relationships, friends or otherwise, sometimes you just have to hold on.

Something Fake

Why does realizing you're wrong hurt so much? There is a boy at school that I like. He is one of my good friends and I really like him. But he likes my best friend. They tried dating but she didn't feel that spark. So I've had my friends bugging him to ask me to the winter dance coming up. And I just realized, that I've been stupid. When my friends were upset that a guy they liked didn't like them back, I always told them, "It's better then being in a false relationship." I need to take my own advice. He has been thinking about it for a few weeks and if he still doesn's know, then he must not like me that much. I don't want to have him pressured into asking me. How could I be so stupid? I guess I need to talk to him about it. But it feels bad being this wrong. However, I don't want something fake. So I'm going to go stag with my ex boyfriend since neither one of us have dates. But there are worse things in life.

I'm Back!

I'm back everyone! Or no one, it depends how you want to look at it. But I'm done with NaNoWriMo now, I didn't make it to 50,000 words. That doesn't matter though, the point is that I did it and I had fun. I'm going to finish the 50,000 words by the end of December. Lots of my friends have read the book and love it. I know it's a long shot but I'm hoping to get it published after I'm done. Bo no one ever got any where without hopes.